Today was a little different... Today I heard, "This is a Call" by Thousand Foot Crutch... A song I haven't heard in years ... And for the first time I actually heard it... Like really listened to the words... It's almost like it was written about me about this specific time in my life... These words describe exactly what is going through my head that I could never say, or have said in bits to different people because I can't tell it all to one person there is just too many layers and too many secrets, secrets that are not only mine to share....
She fooled all of her friends into thinking she's so strong,
but she still sleeps with her light on,
and she acts like
It's all right on, as she smiles again and her mother lies there sick with cancer,
and her friends don't understand her,
she's a question without answers,
who feels like falling apart.
She knows, she's so much more than worthless,
but she needs to find her purpose,
she wonders what she did to deserve this and..
She's calling out to you, this is a call; this is a call out,
'Cause everytime I fall down, I reach out to you,
and I'm losing all control now, and my hazard signs are all out,
I'm asking you, to show me what this life is all about.
